Hi, ahh! I’m about an hour late from day 2.. sorry, but I mean I am Rachel so you can expect some lateness if you want to see greatness ;) hehe… Today was good! Like, really good. I prepared for my first phone interview by watching motivational videos and umm repeating what they would make me say out loud. Haha, dorky yea? O, well! HA! I felt great about myself afterwards.. try it sometimes I highly recommend it.
So, this next poem I wrote about a month ago in regards to one of my best guy friend’s who I was helping to get over his ex. It was a pretty tough experience for him and I was constantly trying my best to console him. My heart went out to him every time we spoke. And I try not to not to be evil, but mann… I just wanted to slap that silly girl! Ughhh!! It’s little childish girls like that who ruin great men. Ha! He’s going to kill me, I never told him I wrote this, but, I know he knows how much I love him and will always love him. Regardless, if he decides to ditch me for girls sometimes :X hehe. I still love you!!
July 16
feeling: Empathetic :(
I watched
I watched you stand there
as i realized love was never fair
i watched as you held yoursef up so tall
high hopes that nobody would see you fall
so I pretended to be ignorant, stayed patient
allowed you to make it a figment of your imagination
letting your denial run soo deep
watching it pile in everything u wanted to keep
memories of her laugh, her voice, her pretty face,
the life u shared that no longer stayed in place
and i wanted so badly to hold you, mold you
just for you to allow me to show you
that love may not be fair
but she also wasn’t the only one who cared
release and let go of all your convictions
stop allowing her to be the exception
i know it was inconcievable
the way she made you feel expendable
a thought you never rendered
the moment your heart was surrendered
forced, you’ve seem to have built this armor
to keep your iced heart from getting any warmer
and I’m barely skimming the tip
as I’m watching your smile starts to chip
and I brace myself for your collapse
ready for your momentarily- lifetime lapse
and as I watch and wait
Realizing all too late
it was never love at fault,
but just a simple blame of fate
