Giving up on Giving in
It’s times like these that make me wonder
how far down one can bury their heart under
enabling them to become immune to these feeling
when in truth my heart just wants to shoot for the ceiling
please someone teach me what it takes
to prevent putting my own heart at stake
how do I replace my emotional power source
that’s activated this horribly complicated concourse
I’ve tried my hardest to hold
back and pretend
leaving my desires on their own to fend
there were numerous attempts
to take you off that peddestool
I road out each path to all extents
and instead ended up losing all sense of cool
for that spark on which you strive
is the only place I’ve been able to thrive
for example, I’ll give you a little sample
just conjuring up the memories of your laugh
lights up my life like an incriminating trap
picturing the Image of your smile
and my heart starts beating about a minute a mile
and everything gets all mixed up
and I’m standing there with all my defenses up
so here it is,
i’m giving up on giving in
to all this nonesense business
I’ll let my heart sore
and see what life has in store
and hopefully at the end of the line
you’ll be the one calling me, mine :)
-Me
